On election night, I felt an intensity of grief,
rage and anguish that rivaled any of the worst nights
of my life. Not so much that Kerry lost, but that
millions of people could vote for Bush, apparently
because they define ‘morality’ as preventing
two people who love each other from making a legally-recognized
commitment, while turning a blind eye to a regime
that has invaded another country for totally invalidated
reasons, lied to the American people, legitimized
sexual torture, and all the rest of it. It’s
enough to challenge one’s faith not just in
Americans, but in the essential goodness of human
beings. Can we apply to join another species?
The wolves, perhaps?
I want to acknowledge my own grief, rage and despair.
People often look to me for words of hope—and
I have some—but they come only when I let
myself feel just as rotten and awful as I’m
sure you do. Van Jones, organizer of Books
Not Bars here in the Bay Area, says we need to learn
to grieve as a movement, and also to celebrate—and
the two are linked. This is a moment to grieve,
which means also to yell and scream and be mad as
hell, to question whether life makes any sense at
all, and then maybe to crawl under the covers and
rest, for a bit.
Yesterday, I really didn’t want to get out
of bed, but I went to the demonstration anyway.
I would have liked to curl up in fetal position
and sleep for possibly the next four years, but
I roused myself to go down to the plaza and join
those hard core souls who had planned to rally and
march for health care regardless of who won. I
did it because I felt it is exactly what we need
to do, the counterintuitive thing—advance
instead of retreat, carry on, see our friends, support
each other, share our grief, rage and shock. It
felt good, to march down Market Street, to stop
at the hotels where workers are striking and support
them, to make some small, renewed effort at continuing
to build the alliances we need.
All day I kept thinking about the vision I had at
our Spiral Dance ritual, the certainty that we are
on the good road. I remember John Kerry said,
“You can be certain and still be wrong.”
But I also remembered the voice I heard in
the vision saying over and over that the good road
does not look very different, at its beginning,
from any other road.
We all know that the changes we need to make are
deep and systemic, that no politician’s victory
will make them for us. Had Kerry won, I believe
we would be on an easier road. Now the way ahead
will be hard and stony, but it may be clearer and
there may be unexpected twists and turns ahead.
And it may yet turn out to be steeper but shorter
than the easier path.
Many good things happened in the last few weeks.
We mobilized many, many people to become active
and engaged. Many progressives set aside their
own deep disappointment with many of Kerry’s
positions to work hard to assure access to voting
for all, and to prevent the worst abuses of the
electoral process. We strengthened many of
the coalitions we will need to transform power in
this country and the world. Although the media
and the Republicans will try to spin this as a mandate
for the worst of Bush’s policies, we have
built a broader, deeper, more committed opposition
than we have seen in this country in a long, long
time. Now we must nurture those alliances
and turn opposition into a clearer, positive alternative
vision—and a longterm strategy for getting
there.
We need time to reflect on these last days. It
is easy to rush into analysis and blame and learn
the wrong things. So I want to be cautious
in offering thoughts prematurely on what we should
do now.
However, one lesson I take away from this last month
is this: As progressives, as radicals, those of
us who are far left of the left, anarchists even,
cannot afford to ignore or disdain the electoral
process. Not because we see it as fair or
just or empowering—which it is not—nor
even a potential arena for power, but because it
is a powerful arena for mobilizing people and building
the alliances we need to transform power.
There are some things we can do immediately. We
can contact our senators and representatives and
demand a full and thorough investigation into all
the voting irregularities, especially the voting
machines that gave results so mysteriously at odds
with the exit polls. Whether or not the number
of missed votes would have elected Kerry this time,
we need to push for clean and fair elections for
the times ahead.
We can support each other. As I’ve been
traveling around the country, I see many progressive
groups faltering or splintering not over deep political
divisions but out of frustration with interpersonal
conflicts. Maybe it’s time to take a
deep breath, think of one irritating ally you have
trouble getting along with, and resolve to allow
them just a little more leeway for being imperfect
and human. We will never have the luxury of
building a movement solely of likeable, congenial
friends. We need to develop more skills for
resolving conflicts among us, and a realization
that even annoying people can still have common
goals and take common action together. Now,
more than ever, we need to, strengthen our solidarity,
give each other comfort and succor, know that we
are all in this together, and together we can make
it through.
We can start thinking about how to build our base,
proactively. The right wing came to power by starting
small and local, taking over school boards, organizing
door to door and house to house. We can create
living examples of alternatives in our communities,
making our positive visions real. We can turn
our frustration, rage and disappointment into creative
action.
Last night, we had a beautiful march, of maybe five
thousand people, all the way through San Francisco
from downtown out to the neighborhood where I live,
exuberant, defiant, saying, “We’re still
here!” We came back home, shared food
and conversation and frustration and sorrow with
good friends and neighbors, experiencing the healing
balm of community.
And I remembered, marching, that we are on the good
road when we choose to be, with each step. When
we choose compassion, choose freedom, choose hope,
choose to resist injustice, choose to serve life.
We do have a hard road ahead, and making those
choices will not be easy. It will require an effort
of will, like it did to get out of bed and go downtown
to march. It will require sustained, stubborn
effort when times get tough. Making systemic
change is like home renovation—it always takes
at least twice as long and costs twice as much as
you expect.
But we can still step out onto that good road, if
we refuse to give up, refuse to go back, refuse
to hide, refuse to flee. And instead, with
courage, with hearts open and open eyes, let us
take hands and go forward together.
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